shutting down to open up...

hmmm.... the young white man who decided it was good idea to place a button on a keyboard that can single handedly shut the entire computer down must have been out of his mind...he should have known about folks like me who cant really type...

reality is in for 2007...philly is in a state of crisis...i am constantly surrounded by young girls with babies..in cheap ass strollers...like human accessories out here...with matching outfits...i had to check my maternal urge for wanting a baby..and i found out it may be due to the advertisements walking around me...dude wearong prison fashion...what kind of black man walks around with "state property" on his fucking back and doesnt get ithe proverbial "it"...so much shit...im fasting as well day 3...trying to see about this here "will" of mine!...

ill be in atl for a moment very soon...shout out to genius for the ill paper...and moon for the ill summer project...oohwee...i think we may be the shit...since this year has been deemed by me the year to "make thing real"..and we are...im wondering if my students this summer will accept this new addition to my face...so im thinking after we go out and handle this world for a while we need to collaborate on a serious ass piece of work..not like in feeling but intent...lets make this here thang real...solid...i came to philly to become "real"...in my work not person..and i feel like i am...got a grant-finished some projects...got some work...this adult thing gets no easier...happiness gets real tough to secure time for aside from all the bullshit...friends get fewer...friend get more "real"...life gets bigger..i find myself having to detatch the way i thought as a child even still...i find myself reaching back to think as i thought as a child as well...

after i finish my film im free and though we will be everywhere..we will still be... i dig the randomness potential..so id like to see something that comes out like crazy-sane...
i keep drawing my lines-literally...
later;)